Risk

"Ode to Van Gogh"
sketch in moleskine

A few nights ago I spent a lovely evening sitting by a fire, getting to know some of Joel's friends. They sweetly brought flowers from their garden and I decided to draw my favorite. The image started to be light and delicate but as my mind raced it morphed into some sort of dark and intense drawing. I realized I was thinking about a conversation we had about my art and decision to run my own business which brought my thoughts to the topic of risk.

A term that has always amused me is that of "calculated risk". Is there such a thing? Try as we might we cannot truly plan out every possible outcome for each decision being made. Sure, we can guess but life has a way of throwing something in that is totally unexpected. I mean, did anyone ever envision a group of radicals flying jets into the Twin Towers? Obviously not. So plan all you want but risk taking is not a science and it doesn't always add up.

Risk takers come in two categories. Some, like Richard Branson, take risks with complete abandon and find it to be joyous. Others like me, cannot live without risk taking but somehow do it kicking and screaming the whole way. We know that any great action comes with a good deal of risk so we do it. However, the process is not necessarily exhilarating to us, unlike Branson who doesn't seem satisfied unless his life is on the line.

What I wonder is can there be a happy medium? Can someone like me, who wants to put herself out there a little, learn to do it without so much anxiety? Can I learn to enjoy the process without becoming feeling the need to risk life and limb for a thrill?

I write this because I had not been able to work much the past few weeks due to a concussion I sustained. It left me unable to look at a computer screen or focus for any length of time. The plans I had for all my outdoor shows seemed to go out the window. Anxiety set in as there was nothing I could do to change my situation. I had to be patient. It left me wondering why I had chosen such a difficult career. Being a one man band ain't easy folks. If I'm not playing there is no music. After much thought I realized I could never be happy doing it any other way. The weekly paycheck never made me feel anything but safe and that wasn't enough for me. Let's face it, Van Gogh kept took the risk and kept painting despite the lack of sales. So, I'll be at those shows playing my tune. It may be a little off key but I'll be there and people will listen. That's just how it is meant to be. Maybe I'm not too different than Branson after all. Oh right, I'm not filthy rich. Better luck next time.

Framed Fruits

Every now and then a client will be so kind as to show me what they've done with the art they've purchased from me. I was so blessed recently by someone that purchased the print of "Ripening Fruits" and had it professionally framed. I cannot tell you how tickeled I was to receive the photo of the finished product. It is sort of an out of body experience to see my work live in someone else's home. Don't you think it looks great?

Speaking of things looking great, my new website is really coming along. I cannot wait for the launch after all the hard work Christine from Websketching put into it. You will be able to purchase the "Ripening Fruits" print and many other items right from the website through PayPal just like other e-commerce sites. Soulful Studios really will be more than just pet portraits.

Currently I have resumed work on "The Veil" and am finishing a 9x12 oil of two cow heads. I have two commissions starting very soon and I must get ready for my booths for Cow Bingo and for the Greenwich Artisans' Faire. My new website will have a schedule page where you can always find information on where I will be. I have so many great things happening my head is spinning a bit. That is a nice change isn't it?

The Game

I'm sorry to buttress my previous happy post with one of sadness. This weekend a great man passed away, Leroy Sievers. During my treatments and recovery I turned to his writings and those of his faithful readers for advice and understanding. As I've healed ,I still tuned in to remind me of the lessons I've learned and to cheer him on or to email my support. Though I knew the day would come, I was still shocked to see the words appear on the screen that his battle was over. In some ways, for his partner Laurie, the battle has just begun.

Normally I have a photo or picture for every post. None seem appropriate. No words seem right either.

All of this makes me think of how silly much of our daily lives are. We strive and push and try to do the right thing. We take ourselves rather seriously. The truth is life is a game. It doesn't make total sense and I have come to believe it is supposed to be that way. Trying to make sense of life will make you insane. I'm probably part way there after all the analyzing I've done. The best we all can do is to enjoy ourselves and be good to the other game players and then roll the dice. We move accordingly knowing all the while that sometimes skill or luck will bring winnings and other times we land on Park Place loaded with our opponent's hotels. The cycle goes on forever. Win or lose, the game keeps being played by you or somebody else. Period.

Never Say Never

"Lori and Joel"

As I always say, this blog is mostly for business news about Soulful Studios. Every now and then I share something personal. My readers have been there for me during the good, the bad and the ugly and for that I'm thankful. Now I would like to give you some news that I am stunned that I have to share. I walked around for nearly 6 years saying something like this would never happen and I was thankfully wrong. I am officially engaged to the most amazing man ! To be honest, I really didn't believe there was a man on earth that met each point on the list I once wrote about what I believed I wanted in a partner. I wrote it as a joke but it actually came true. Again, never say never because he lives and breathes and has asked me to be his wife. Beyond that he has two beautiful children that have brought out maternal desires in me that I long since buried. That is the most surprising of all as I believed I no longer had any interest in nurturing anyone or anything beyond my art. I am so serious about this that I chide my love that on days we do not see eye to eye, his children keep me from changing my mind. This blows my mind (in a good way) as I type these words. How is it that such goodness has come my way?

I look forward to seeing where this happiness takes my work. Recently, with all the excitement there has been a little less time for painting which put the pressure on me to make the most of the pieces I did work on. This actually pushed me to be more decisive and to work smarter. The last three pieces shown of the cows were created during this magical time. They are currently at First Impressions Gallery and one has already sold. The others have received great feedback as well and many have asked about the "difference" they see in my work. I see it too. As things settle down I believe you will be seeing more and more great paintings on this site.

What a difference a year makes. Thank G-d.

First Impressions Gallery August Show

"Simple Afternoon 1"
Acrylic on Board
5x7 framed
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"Simple Afternoon 2"
Acrylic on Board
5x7 framed
SOLD

"Simple Afternoon 3"
Acrylic on Board
9x12 framed
Sold

This Friday August 8th is the show opening for First Impressions Art Gallery in Salem, NJ. I will be there briefly and I hope you can stop by. The above paintings are my new contributions to my gallery space there. If you would like to purchase on you can email me or contact the gallery. The larger one was done from sketches created from a farm off of Route 45 in Salem County. There will be more pieces inspired by that site in the future I'm sure. I love this grouping as I feel it speaks of what I find to be so peaceful and beautiful about the area. Scenes like these used to be commonplace but now are harder to find. I hope you enjoy them as I do.

Make sure you visit my blog again shortly as I will have updates on the plans for Soulful Studios' new pet portrait site as well as some exciting personal news. It is never boring around here!

Proud Moment

"Partners"
Oil on Canvas
16"x20"

To say I'm not thrilled with the finish of this piece would be a lie. I always have difficulty with patting myself on the back because I always feel I could do better. Not this time. However, I know this piece was not totally in my hands. First, the good people at Canine Partners for Life provided me with an inspiring photo. Second, I constantly felt divinely driven while painting and never felt alone with this piece. Finally, this piece has an important purpose and I felt certain that the universe wouldn't allow this to go wrong. So, this is a very proud moment for me, I did my job well.

What excites me so much is that I feel the goal of this artwork has been met. Let me tell you that this is a rare event. My intention was to bring awareness to the human-animal partnership and to show its beauty. Many people have emailed me that they would hang this painting in their homes and they find it to be very beautiful not just touching. I find this particularly interesting because so many of us tend to avert our eyes when we see someone in a wheelchair. We don't mean to be rude but we often don't want someone to see in our eyes what we feel. The presence of a service dog does make us more comfortable but we still tend to shy away. This painting has the opposite effect. That is what makes this a success in my eyes.

So make sure you look for the September issue of Pet Companions Magazine. Also, I will be selling prints and cards of this piece and portions of the proceeds will go to CPL. Stay tuned for major happenings with Soulful Studios like the launch of my new website as well as dates for upcoming events where you could meet me in person.

Inching Closer

"Partners"

16"x20"

oil on canvas

work in progress

Slowly but surely I am inching closer to having the cover to Pet Companions Magazine finished. I intended this piece to be rendered and more photographic than how I have been painting lately. I've not done this sort of thing in a long time. What I find interesting is that I enjoy it much more now and it flows easily. Before I learned to paint more loosely, I would labor over rendering. Now, because I am less timid, the tighter work seems to just fall off my brush. This one has been painting itself. I've enjoyed this experience very much. Don't ask me why but I believe this painting is sort of a watershed for other big things to come. I don't know that that means exactly but I have a fluttery feeling in the pit of my stomach about it.

Someone asked me why I chose this subject. We've all heard my rants about the goodness that comes from animals and humans partnering together and my connection with Canine Partners for Life. There is more to it. Many years ago I used to take notes for people taking college classes that for one reason or another couldn't take the notes themselves. At one point I worked for a guy my age who had an accident that resulted in him being a quadriplegic. Since he had difficulty with his hands I scribbled class notes for him. We became good friends.

One day he asked me to go with him to pick out a gift for his mother at the mall. He has a specially equipped van that made it possible for him to drive. One would think that would give him great access to activities we take for granted. It surprisingly did not. We entered the mall laughing only soon to be leaving in a foul mood. The isles were too small for him to maneuver and many items were out of his reach. He did not want my help but wanted his independence. This brought me to great awareness of what independence really means.

A service dog is certainly no replacement for one's own abilities but they provide great opportunities for an independent life. A dog can do many things for someone that uses a chair or that fatigues quickly or has seizures that another human cannot do. A human "helps", often leaving the recipient feeling like a burden. A dog is a partner that also depends on the human for its care. A dog knows when you are upset or frustrated and will comfort you, so not only does it help with physical needs but emotional needs as well. A dog is loyal to its human partner in a way that no two-legger could be. This is why I did this painting. This is a tribute.

Soulful Studios would like to take a brief moment to welcome Christine DeGraff of Websketching into the world of blogging. Supposedly my little writing habit got her started. Frankly, I think that flame just needed to be fanned a little. Christine is not only working on my new website but she is a huge supporter of my pet portrait work and helping me with my visibility here in Salem County. Thanks Christine!

Monday Again

"Running Dry"
sketch in moleskine

Last Friday I spent time near Fort Mott sketching one of the marsh areas I frequent. Due to lack of rain the water level was low and the view seemed rather somber to me. As I sketched, I felt myself feeling more down and frustrated inside, instead the typical excitement of doing my graphite sketches. It occurred to me that much like the little stream, my energy levels were running dry. My summer of fun, though wonderful, is now starting to take its toll.

What I wonder now is did I pick that scene or did it choose me? I was not aware of my feelings until I put pencil to the paper. Nothing in life is happenstance. This I am certain. Something drew me there to help me see myself. It is that ability to look more deeply that makes Soulful Studios what it is. I meant what I said in the title of this blog, this is more than just pet portraits.

My next post will show the progress of the magazine cover. Stay tuned.

Slowly But Surely

"Partners"

16x20

oil on canvas

work in progress

Above is the current work in progress for "Pet Companions Magazine". This oil painting will be featured on the cover of their September issue, dedicated to the fine work of service dogs. I could think of nothing better than to use an image provided by Canine Partners for Life. (On a side note check their affiliation page as you might recognize someone there!) Keeping in mind the heroic work done by canines during 9/11 and in other times of human need, I thought I would combine all tributes to our dog assistants with this image. What do you think?

I have a long way to go on this painting. As you can see I started working the canvas in umbers. Now I am layering in transparent color to give it depth. I will be softening the background edges and pushing it back even more. The dog will be finished by the end of this week or early next week. This process should create a feeling of the works created by Norman Rockwell. That is what I'm going for. Lately I've been wavering between my old detailed style and my looser more painterly vision. However, I knew for a magazine cover this was the approach that was needed.

As my regular readers know, the past two summers were not full of fun. Well, I seem to be making up for it this year. The painting above and a few pet portraits are still on the easel but I'm guilty of taking time to play as well. Actually, I think it is really important to finally be able to enjoy my good health, so I take this respite with pride. However, I've also been quite busy setting up plans for a new website complete with e-commerce capabilities.

Christine DeGraff, partner and designer for Websketching, is working diligently to create a new and more interactive website for Soulful Studios. I love my current site but see the market changing and requiring a different sort of approach. Christine is also the creator of DiscoverSalemCounty.com that features my work as well. It was that website that prompted me to use her amazing services as I saw that she understood my needs and my interest in improving the awareness of the cultural opportunities in Salem County. I even joined the Woodstown-Pilesgrove Business Association to get more connected myself. My cup runneth over with exciting possibilities.

Return to the Marsh

"Return to the Marsh"
sketch in moleskine

I've been so busy enjoying my summer and working on the piece for the cover of Pet Companions Magazine that I started to lose my center. When that happens I force myself to take a break from the "to do" list of pet portraits and sit quietly and sketch. This activity really should be like my daily vitamin but like most things that seem like a luxury, I put it off for another time. That is always a big mistake.

So, to get my head together I returned to a spot I frequented last year. Early in July of 2007 I would spend time painting in the area of Supawna Meadows. Last year was a difficult time, this year is a different story. I wanted to see if things looked different to me with my fresh perspective on life.

Though this is only a sketch instead of a painting like last year's take on this scene, you can see that my vision is the same. What I found to be beautiful last year still struck me as worthy. However, it was the process that changed for me. I no longer feel pressure to get in a good piece of work. No. Now I just enjoy the activity of creation. Each time I do it I feel it is like a prayer being sung in thanks. I feel like I am doing what I was born to do. With that focus there is no expectation on the result. The funny thing is that the product usually shows my enthusiasm.

I take care of the quantity and God takes care of the quality.

Letting the World In

"The Veil"
20"x30"
oil on canvas
beginning stages

Currently I am working on two large paintings at once as well as creating greeting cards and prints to be sold on my website, galleries and retail stores. Soulful Studios has never been busier. It requires intense work but I am enjoying it. However, I look forward to the time when the business planning side eases up a bit and I am mostly focusing on painting as that is my true love. Developing new business opportunities will afford me the luxury of more painting time later. I love painting and creating pet portraits, not necessarily finding the work.

The painting above is in its early stages. If you are a regular reader you know that I anthropomorphize my animals. Come back to see the progress of this piece and I will then explain some of the meaning that inspired me to create this piece of equine art.

In the midst of my flurry of recent activity I was stopped in my tracks today by a little girl in the post office. As I opened a gift sent to me by my Canadian friend, Amanda, I was greeted with a big smile and belonging to a pretty little girl around the age of 6 or 7. As I met her glance she held out her hand holding an old silk rose. She quietly but confidently said "this is for you". I was taken aback and meekly said "thank you". Then she skipped out the door as I told her that she had made my day, though I'm not sure she heard me. I didn't even get the chance to share the chocolates that were waiting for me in the package I picked up. My guess is the little girl wouldn't even have wanted anything in return as this was her moment to just give. Something about this happening struck me to the core. So often I go through my day with a sense of routine. It seems every time I step out of that mindset I am pleasantly surprised by life. One little effort on my part to meet the gaze of a child resulted in a special moment that will stay with me and lighten my heart for days. Today was a reminder to not get caught up in my own head for too long as the world can surprise you if you stay aware long enough to let it in.

Learning to Dream Big

"The Old Sentinel"
oil on canvas
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I decided to do a small oil painting of my sketch before I go to the large finish. I learned a lot from this little experiment and know now how to work this idea out even more. The horse's name is "Macho" and I look forward to honoring his position in life even more with the final large painting. This small treasure will be available shortly at First Impressions Art Gallery. One of the "Morning Horse" pieces has sold already and those also will end up in a larger format. Lately I am so full of inspiration and ideas. I can't seem to keep up with them all.

Currently on my easel is a 20"x30" canvas of a horse looking out through the trees. Later this week I will share that with you. Also, in progress is a piece for the cover of "Pet Companions Magazine". Both of these works a requiring much energy that takes me away from some other smaller projects that I enjoy like painting outdoors and sketching. I know balance will come once again so stay tuned for more of those works in the future.

On a side note I am always in search of other sites that I believe "do the right thing". I'd like to bring your attention to one in particular called FetchDog.com. It is hosted by Glenn Close who does great animal advocacy work and really has created an informative and usefull site. Proceeds from products purchased there go to animal charities and there is a wealth of information available there as well. Maybe one day Soulful Studios pet portraits will be found there as well. Someday I could be the pet portrait artist of the stars which would allow me the opportunity to raise even more money for my favorite organizations! You never know. I'm learning to work hard and dream big. I've come a long way from the lady that couldn't think past the moment she was in. Healing happens.

Being Open

"Old Sentinel"
sketch in moleskine

The show on Friday at First Impressions Gallery went very well. The artists pulled together to help Mary, the owner, in her time of need and things ran smoothly. There was a good group of patrons and a steady flow of sales. Miss Sarah sang a beautiful song for the crowd and a good time was had by all.

This weekend I was scheduled to paint en plein air in Millville. The week had been long and the weather hot. My heart was not feeling enthusiasm for battling the elements to paint outdoors. Lately I have been painting in the studio and working on my pet portraits and that is where my focus is. So, I made an executive decision and bagged the paint out. Guilt did creep in but I know sometimes plans are made to be broken. Flexibility is the key to happy accidents.

In exchange for what I sacrificed the universe seemed to provide moments that were more than I could have asked for, dreamt of or planned. So often we are tied to "doing" instead of "being". I'm as guilty of that transgression as the next guy. However, every time I leave myself open to allowing opportunities to appear instead of making them happen I'm always pleasantly surprised.

The above sketch is of a friend's horse in PA. He is old as you can see by the slight sway in his back. Being the leader of the paddock he faithfully watches and stays alert. This sketch will be a larger painting one day. This is the plan.

Dog Portrait - Black Lab Puppy

Custom Pet Portrait

9"x12"

oil on canvas

Last night's "Yappy Hour" hosted by Canine Partners for Life was a success. I bought my share of puppy kisses from two future service dogs that were too cute and cuddly. A special surprise was in store for me when my dear friends Vicki Nixon and her husband Brian showed up not only to support CPL but to include their friend Jen who is a shinning star. It was a pleasure and an honor to meet her. I was very touched that my friends cared enough to support something with me that I believe in and help me spread the word. Animals and nature hold the keys to what is right in this world and I feel this organization stands for that. That in a nutshell is what my art is all about.

The above painting is a gift for someone special so I cannot give you the name of this dog but I can tell you he is precious. Generally, I don't do my dog portraits from puppy pictures as the personality is not as easily visible as when they are older. However, in this case, this canine is full of love and joy and I think the portrait shows that. Painting the colors of black was also enjoyable. Can you believe that no black paint was used to create those colors? That would be just too easy.

Soulful Studios Event Updates

Lori Levin and Einstein

Isn't that such a face, you just want to squeeze it and kiss it? Of course I mean the dog silly! The photo was taken at the Canine Partners for Life brunch held a Buckley's Tavern two Sundays ago. This sweet pup went around the restaurant collecting donations for the organization. There’s nothing like sending in the secret weapon to do the dirty work. I had a great time as did everyone else. I even got to judge the pajama contest. Yes, canine and humans alike showed up to brunch in their sleepwear. Yes, I chickened out and came in shorts and a t-shirt. I didn't want anyone to see me in my yellow Eeyore pajamas. That would have been scary.

If you are sad that you missed that event don't despair. This Wednesday night you can join me and the folks from CPL at their "Yappy Hour" in Wilmington at the Iron Hill Brewery. Click here for more details. Also, don't forget Cow Bingo on Sept 13th. I will be there offering special deals on pet portraits and unveiling some of my new prints and note cards that will soon be available. If you can't wait that long to see me make sure you come to First Impressions Gallery in Salem this Friday at 6pm. I'll be there with many other well known local artists showing their new work. I know Alex Alampi will be there and probably Denise Erickson. That is a great opportunity to ask questions about art and learn about collecting art.

I want to finish this post by thanking Joe Pulcinella, my super talented photographer friend. Last year I gave him a tiny little colored pencil drawing. Just recently he had it framed with such love and care that it looks like a museum piece. Please check out his website and see the amazing work he does. He finds the "life" inside of everyone and captures it forever. Thank you Joe for honoring my work.

The Relationship of Trees

"The Relationship of Trees"
sketch in moleskine

There are only about 3 pages left in this moleskine sketchbook. This probably has been my favorite sketchbook ever and the only one I ever completely filled all the pages. It seems very fitting.

Out and about in my car, I stopped to sketch these trees touched by sunlight in a very densely wooded area. It struck me how they were rooted together and moved toward and away from each other, while both growing towards the light. It reminded me of human relationships. Yes, there I go anthropomorphizing everything again. Sometimes this pairing works and other times it does not. I think the survival of the trees depends on the fact that they both grow in the same direction, without overpowering the other and blocking the light. That is truly profound. However, just when you thought it was simple, I would like to mention the issue of disease and termites. Nothing is ever clear cut.

This coming Wednesday is a Canine Partners For Life "Yappy Hour" in Wilmington. Click here for more details. I will be there and will write more on this next week.

Morning Horse

"Morning Horse 1 &2"
Acrylic on Canvas
6"x12"'
Click to Purchase

You may remember back a few posts the picture I sketched in my moleskine sketchbook of a similar image. In preparation for larger oil paintings I decided to do two smaller works to firm up my ideas. Morning is my favorite time of day and is most inspirational to me. I feel at peace and very connected to my surroundings at that time. This relaxed state can also be seen in the animals around me. These horses represent that feeling and have a dreamlike quality. They remind me of the glorious windows by Louis Comfort Tiffany. Someday I plan to learn to create windows like that. For now my paintings will do.

These two works will be shown and for sale at the next opening at First Impressions Art Gallery in Salem, NJ on June 13th. I will be there briefly as I need to rest up for two days of painting in plein air at the event in Millville on Saturday and Sunday. If you are interested in purchasing these works or would like to know more about the gallery show feel free to contact me at the studio.

Off to work on my secret dog portrait commission. I can't wait until I can show it to all of you!

Speaking of horses, let's all cheer for Big Brown to win Belmont so he can be a Triple Crown legend. I cannot tell you how excited I will be if this happens. Perhaps a painting of him will have to be done in his honor. How could I resist?

Inspiration

"Round Bale"
sketch in moleskine

Last night's storms are over, leaving us with a gorgeous day today. Though I have deadlines I must meet, I took time to take in the beauty of my lovely Salem County and record it in my moleskine sketchbook. This view is alongside the road leading to Fort Mott. (Remember, this is yet another state park that is scheduled for closing. I'll stop there before I get hot.) There were a dozen or so round bales in a small field. Egrets were hanging out there as well. I stopped on the side of the road to take it all in and began my drawing.

Purposely I chose to do a scene with the Salem Nuclear Plant's cooling tower looming in the background. I no longer see this as an eyesore. Now it has become a source of inspiration to me. Most would have passed by this scene unmoved but it is my vision and perspective that creates the interest. Though it doesn't really belong in a landscape, I see the tower as beautiful. This is how I see my life you could say. Of course I made the hay, the naturally lovely object, take center stage. Yes, I put it dead center for a reason. It is a visual conversation about power. To me, this speaks of how things in the background can subtly overtake the obvious attention getter. Tell me what you think about this. Is there a clear object of dominance in this drawing or does something continuously beg you to adjust your thinking?

Red Geraniums

"Red Geraniums"
sketch in moleskine

"Red Geraniums"

5x7

Oil on Canvas

Sold

Over a year ago I believe I posted "Red Impatiens", a little painting I did in my backyard. It was the first plein air painting I tried. That experience planted the seed of interest in painting outside. I've done more since then but of late I've been busy in the studio with pet portraits. I cannot post the one I'm working on now as it is a surprise gift and I am not sure if the recipient reads my blog. I took a break from studio work over the weekend to dust off my plein air skills. "Red Geraniums" is the result.

The lovely folks that purchased "Red Impatiens" purchased this piece. I created it with them in mind. I was so touched that they bought another of my works. Someone collecting my art is the ultimate form of flattery. I send out a big thank you to them!

Above, you can see the original sketch that prompted the painting. If you look closely you can see that the drawing did not include the small buds to the right. When I started the oil painting I noticed the composition no longer worked due to color. The red was so intense and only present in the left of the canvas that the right side seemed awkward. Back in my younger years I would have started over putting the red flowers dead center for balance. Now that I'm a little more experienced I knew that would only lead to a boring composition and boredom on my part. I solved the problem by adding a touch of red with the buds. Those little buds carry as much weight as two full blooms. That sends a message I think. I love that composition even more than the original. Here's to happy accidents. They always result in a better piece of art.

What I've Learned From My Dog

"Morning Horse"
"A Moment"
"Red Barn"

The three sketches above are all from my moleskine sketchbook. Each one was done early in the morning from lovely Salem County, especially around Pennsville. These were done back in April when I was still longing to be running in the park as the sun came up but just couldn't muster the strength. I would try and try but the more I pushed to do what my body didn't want the more my body won. Since I realized at that point that my mind was stronger than my body I used my morning hours

to draw.

These are some of my favorite sketches in my book. I feel they resemble what I see myself and how I want to be seen as an artist. They speak of solitude and quiet beauty as well as the universal need for companionship. Sure, this may not be earth shattering news to anyone but sometimes I think we overlook the most obvious things in life.

How is this all related to my dog? Well, during this time when I was unable to be as physically active as I wanted to be I noticed a change in my dog. If you remember Miss Gracie had ACL surgery back in 2006. Since that time she would limp on some days and be very lethargic on others. She gained weight. I figured this was how it was going to be and accepted her fate as being slightly disabled.

Then a miraculous thing happened. When I finally stopped lamenting over her disabilities and focused on other things she began to run around a little. Before I knew it she was making tracks in my backyard by running circles in a wild frenzy. She began once again waking me up early in the morning insisting on a jaunt to the park. I thought this dog was gone forever. After a few weeks of constant movement her girlish figure returned and she no longer had to diet. There was no real effort there; it was just nature taking its course.

I'm not always the sharpest tool in the shed but it didn't get past me that she allowed healing to happen and it did. It took about 18 months but she bounced back. I doubt she spent her healing time trying to push herself and worrying if she would ever recover. She focused on other things like finding the nicest part of the yard to sunbathe and how to swindle me out of a treat with the least amount of effort.

Then of course I had to take an honest look at myself. Only just recently have I been able to take her to the park without major effort. Actually, I am able to enjoy it once again. I notice I move around a lot more though I refrain from running in circles in the yard. My girlish figure is sure to follow suit. It has been about 13 months since my treatment ended. I can totally see myself as feeling 100% in 5-6 months. Understand, I don't think one can abandon good sense and healthy living but healing can't be a reusult of just will. This won't be a matter of effort or determination; it will be the natural course of things.

Why does that damn dog always have to be smarter than me?

Doberman Dog Portrait - Amanda

"Amanda Rose"
11x14
graphite on paper
private commission


Yesterday I completed the dog portrait of the Doberman named Amanda. The client asked me to include her name at the bottom with a tiny rose. Usually I do not do this but it seemed very important her. As a commission artist, I always have to balance between making the customer happy and staying true to my creative side. Hopefully I have found a balance here and will have a very happy pet portrait owner.

People and other artists especially, laugh at my business of drawing deceased pets. I've heard all the jokes, trust me. What folks don't realize is that I love what I do because I feel I am offering more than just a drawing. Every single one of my clients that ask to memorialize a pet has told me that I helped in the healing process and the pain of loss. On rare days that I'm just not in the mood to draw, I use that knowledge of my true purpose as a motivating force. I've always wanted to make a difference in this world. Perhaps this is a very tiny way to do it but I'm still doing it and I'm thankful for the ability.

As to the question always asked of "how do I get that look in the eye", the answer is I just don't know and I love the mystery of it.

Pet Portrait In Progress

Above is a view of my drawing table where I surround myself with different pictures and versions of my subject. I've been working on the pet portrait of this Doberman named Amanda for about a week now. Yes, this is what a week's worth of work looks like. As you can see, at this rate I make about 5 cents per hour. However, I wouldn't trade the way things are to return to the corporate world. As I work, my studio is open allowing the occasional bird to fly in and say hello, as well as hourly visits by Gracie. My favorite music plays in the background and I can wear anything I want or nothing at all. Just kidding there, I wanted to see if you were paying attention.

Currently I'm also working on a small painting of two cows and sketching many future paintings. I have been a bit behind on posting my sketchbook drawings as I've been more into working than blogging about it. It will all come out in the wash, it always does.

This past Friday, the world lost an extremely talented artist with a very unique vision, Scott Fertig. Scott was kind enough to send me words of encouragement in regards to my own cancer and my art while all along he was preparing to leave this world because of his. His work influenced me in a very important way. I always strive to bring more to my art than just a reproduction of a photo or the scene before me. When I studied his work suddenly I understood how to find what I was looking for all along. It all made sense. This piece in particular opened my eyes and without a doubt is brilliant. Thanks Scott and I hope there are big lazy dogs where you are too.

Amanda...or is it Gracie?

"Amanda"

pencil sketch in moleskine

It has been said that often the people represented in an artist's work often resemble the artist. Is this also true for the artist's dog? I am working on a commission of a lovely Doberman named "Amanda". She passed away last year but stays in the hearts of her humans and I am attempting to honor that. It seems my mind has other plans.

Anyway, I sit down and work out my thoughts on the piece in my sketchbook. As I sit sketching happily, Miss Gracie walks into the studio to check on me. I keep telling her I'm drawing another puppy and ask her for her opinion. I pick up my book to show her and at that instant I realize I've created a very nice sketch however, it looks an awful lot like Gracie! How did that happen? Gracie seems to like it though and goes back to watching birds. So, I went back and played with it some more, of course killing the freshness of the drawing and get a closer likeness to the Dobe. Damn you Gracie.

The drawing is not spot on but it does help me figure out some issues before I go to the good paper. Mistakes in a sketch are a good thing. It alerts me to my assumptions and reconnects me to my observations. We walk around in the world labeling everything in our minds. This habit blinds us to what is really there. Artists usually don't do that as much but when errors happen it is a clear sign we are labeling and not looking. You can understand better what I mean by trying this little trick. Pull out your favorite photo of yourself or a loved one. Look at it closely, close your eyes and picture it in your mind. Now turn it upside-down. Do the same thing. Now email me and tell me the differences in your observation.

The Freshman

"The Freshman"

20x30

oil on canvas

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Thoroughbreds bred for the racetrack are often turned out in a field after they are weaned until about two years old. They usually do not receive too much handling during this time as people are waiting to see how they mature. Generally they can be rough looking with oversized halters and wild manes and tales. However, an individual that knows horses can take one look at them and see who may have the potential to be athletic, based on conformation and even the look in their eye. You may be reading this thinking a snap judgment like that could be wrong. This is true but don't we all tend to do that with each other?

Sketches and Slobber

"Tuesday Afternoon"
sketch in moleskine

"Window Seat"

sketch in moleskine

Just some more looks into my sketchbook. Presently there are five more that I have not yet scanned in with two more added each week. I better get crackin'!

The one of Gracie looking out the car window made me laugh the entire time I did it. The original plan was to draw the horses in the field that I had driven a couple of miles to see. It was a rainy day and I thought I would entertain Gracie by taking her with since her daily walk would not take place. Obviously she had other plans. Often she will sit politely and look out the window and then just settle down to sleep in the car. Of course since I went out of my way to draw horses, she had to block my view and fill the car with her anxious cries and serious slobber. Was she thinking she wanted to go out there and chase that horse? If she was, she doesn't know I saved her from some very hard hooves.

Two future sketches will turn into paintings because they were so strong and I can't get them out of my head. You will see them in upcoming posts. Also to be shown is the finish of "The Freshman" and the start of a new pet portrait, "Amanda". I think they will be worth the wait.

Sketchbook Education

"Leftovers"
(Finns Point Lighthouse)
sketch in moleskine

"Positive and Negative"

sketch in moleskine

"When Rain Doesn't Matter"

sketch in moleskine

Often I'm asked how long I spend sketching and why do not all things in my sketchbook turn into paintings. The answer is both simple and complicated. So here's my best effort at an explanation.

I set out to do at least 2 sketches a week in my book and each takes about 45 minutes once I settle on a location and a composition. Sometimes I do more and sometimes less. I can tell you that when I do less my work suffers and I have a feeling of disconnect. My sketches are the medicine for the ills of my art or a vitamin that supplies what I'm not getting in my regular art diet.

That brings me to why not everything becomes a painting. Sketching is immediate. It requires my mind to quiet and to be very much in the moment. Without knowing it I often am getting an education in composition, value and use of line. If I spend enough time doing it, I no longer worry if a sketch will come out good or "ruin my book". The law of averages will make the book appear to be pleasing to the eye. Also, without trying I will work out stale compositions and come up with new ways of looking at things. I notice my studio work becomes more decisive and less timid the more time I spend with my moleskine.

Yes, this was what the professors in college tried to teach us. I had many sketchbooks then but never kept them faithfully. I was always just looking for the means to an end. It often felt like an hour I couldn't afford to spare. Now I feel as I cannot afford not to spend an hour connecting with my pencil. Again a sign I have grown up a little. The funny thing is, sketching is play. Maybe I've figured out how to be a child again? I believe it is something even better.

One last note, CORZINE WHAT ARE YOU THINKING CLOSING THE PARKS?

Art of the Day

"Tennis Ball or Dog Toy"
5x7
oil on canvas
SOLD

This is cool! Pardon the shameless self promotion (isn't that what a blog is about anyway?). My work has been chosen as the "Art of the Day" for EBSQ where I am a "Plus" member. What does that mean? I am not just a paying member but part of an elite group that were juried in to this popular online community for artists. The topic was "balls" and I guess this piece fit the bill. The painting is sold and now resides in England. Perhaps something you purchased will become the "Art of the Day"!

New Work New Show

"Penn Beach #3"

acrylic on canvas

9x12

Here is the third piece painted while sitting in my car, parked along the river at Penn Beach. Thank goodness for my Scion's plastic steering wheel, as the green paint that found its way there washed off easily. We won't discuss the fate of my clothing.

Friday April 11th at 6pm is the next opening at First Impressions Gallery in Salem, NJ. I will be there for a bit to meet and greet and hope to see you there. Six of my most recent paintings will be exhibited. I am told that the work there will all have a spring inspired theme.

Please contact me if you need directions of for more information.

Strange Relationship

"Oberlin"
graphite sketch in moleskine

"FT Elfsborg Road"

graphite sketch in Moleskine

"Aging Gracefully"

graphite sketch in Moleskine

I'm busy working in the studio on some new horse paintings and finishing up framing and one little plein air piece for the next First Impressions Gallery show. My next post will include details of that. I've noticed that I am behind on blog posts, so I thought I would show you some the sketches in my moleskine sketch book.

These sketches are a good indication of what is going on in my mind and life at the time. The above images are from a few weeks ago and I see that they are somewhat careful and polite. I have more sketches to post that are darker, bolder and more graphic. This doesn't mean that they are better than what I display here but rather they mimic my attitude.

I'm feeling bolder about my art. Somehow my vision is clearer. Only the work I do will prove that so I don't want to say much more. However, I notice a strange relationship building with my car. I do some of my best work in there. All of my sketches of late have been created in my car as well as another plein air piece that you have not seen as of yet. I'm starting to wonder if I should just keep my paints in there at all times as that is where they end up anyway.

Now I wonder, should I call it painting in plein air when it is done in an automobile?

Sunsets

Above:
"Sunset Stroll"
12x24
Oil on Board

Below:
"Sunset Supper
12x24
Oil on Board

I've been painting horses quite a bit lately. These two pieces will be shown for the first time at the next First Impressions exhibition in April. I have other paintings of horses I'm working on in the studio now.

For a long time it was difficult to use horses in my art as they were no longer a part of my daily life. I decided to find my peace with the subject in these paintings. The time of day and the relationships suggested in the pieces are my way of depicting my feelings. Many people use animals to express freedom or escape. For me, animals are a symbol of my human relationships worked out in my art.

Perhaps you've been included in one of my paintings and don't even know it.

Meet LeRoy

Hi everybody! Please welcome LeRoy to the world. LeRoy is new pup to be loved and trained by the great people at Canine Partners for Life. For the next year he will live in a loving home and enjoy all the things a good dog should. Then if he is able he will start school to see if he could be another great assistance dog for folks needing such a partner.

I am sharing this with you because I had the extreme honor of naming him. What is even more special is that I offered the name of my father. If you ever met my dad you would know that he would have gone crazy for this little guy and the idea of a service dog sharing his name. I can only hope that this pup can live up to such a name as "The King". Somehow I believe he will.

There will be more art to be posted later in the week. I'm so busy painting in the studio but I'm behind on photographing the work! Such a nice problem to have.

If you would like to volunteer and raise a potential service dog please contact Canine Partners for Life as they are always looking for happy homes to start their puppies. I can't think of a better way to give a little as well as get some love in return.

Another Car Painting

" Morning View by the River"
9x12
acrylic on canvas

Can we still call this a plein air painting when it was created in my little Scion XB? Yes, I did this one in my car too. A few weeks ago I did a sketch like this and I kept saying I wanted to go back and paint it. I chose to do it this week and what a joy it was. Sitting in my warm car with my favorite tunes playing and painting just seemed too good to be true. Mentally it is exhausting but when I'm done I feel like I've conquered the world. What draws me to this tree is that like so much else in Pennsville along Penn Beach, it is slanted from the wind. Everything along the water "bends" to the will of the winds off the Delaware River. Everything including me I think must bend. Also, I am so taken by that Delaware Memorial Bridge that I am always looking for ways to include it in my work. Maybe one day I'll do a dog with the bridge! That would incorporate all my talents! Wacky.

Speaking of dogs, the previous piece shown, "Good Stick, Good Dog" has been sold. I will be making note cards of the image too, so if you are interested in those please let me know.

I want to give a little shout out to my wonderful friends Denise Erickson and Deborah Lynam. The three of us spent the day together to see the Frida Kahlo exhibition and had an amazing time. During the private tour and after, we learned so much about Frida, ourselves and our art it was mind blowing. We slowed down and took in the images like they were nourishment for our souls. So much of today's culture insists on flashing pictures before your eyes with no time to savor them. This experience was completely different and reminded us that art, like fine food, should be taken in slowly and enjoyed to the point that each color and flavor is appreciated and understood. Thanks ladies for such a beautiful day that I will always remember.

Black Lab Drawing

"Good Stick Good Dog"
11"x14"
graphite on archival paper
SOLD

As promised, here is one of the pieces I've been working on. This is one of the Canine Partners for Life dogs. I couldn't resist showing a lab with a stick. Every lab I ever known takes great pleasure in a good stick. Miss Gracie could care less. She'd rather chew on another dog. I'm only kidding, well maybe just a little.

This piece is framed and ready is for sale. It will serve as an example of my pet portrait work until it finds a home. I will make note cards of this one as well for sale at my next vendor booth opportunity.

Have a great weekend. Enjoy a good stick.

Don't Look Back Or You'll Trip

"Morning at the River"

graphite sketch in moleskine

My previous post was about not looking ahead too much into the future. This entry is about not looking back. As I took my morning stroll through Riverview Beach Park I was thinking about how I used to run that path with relative ease and now walking feels like I'm carrying someone else on my back. Maybe that is exactly what I was doing by thinking that way. Could I be carrying the old me on my shoulders as I go? As I thought about what I used to be able to do I wasn't letting in the happiness of what I was doing right at that very moment. Just as I came to my senses I tripped (gracefully, wink-wink) and made quite the show for the dog behind the fence watching me. (I gave my partner Miss Gracie the day off.)

Yeah, I've mentioned before about living in the moment but golly (insert expletive here) it is tough. Sometimes it seems to be more fun to think and talk about what was or what could be. Basically I think it can be destructive but so tempting.

So if you see me in the park stumbling along tell me to straighten up and pay attention to now. Ha! Also, tie my shoe for me because it is just too hard to bend over and do it myself. Thanks.

I haven't forgotten about posting my new projects, I've just been too lazy to photograph them. I'll get on the ball I promise.

Change of Seasons

"View of Delaware City"
graphite sketch in moleskine

Just another sketch in my little moleskine book to share. I sat in my car at Fort Mott, on a chilly morning after our tiny snow and looked out across the river to Delaware City. It is funny to post this today because 10 days ago it was snowing and today it is 60 degrees. I'm all about spring! Winter can kiss my cold butt.

I remember sitting on the bench (right side of sketch) last summer wondering where I would be this summer. Well, this summer is almost here. Some things that I thought would happen didn't disappoint and other things never came to fruition. Isn't it always that way? You can plan all you want but the future always stays one step ahead. I'm trying to save my precious energy for the present. I'm trying.